Welcome to the Twilight!
Currently Under Construction with Elm...
Content Warning: normally I don't believe in content
warnings, because I believe they can be used as a way to
ignore the consequences of your actions. However, this site
will often speak about my own mental health, and it could be
particularly dangerous if you yourself have trauma, so be
forewarned. Also, as a side note, I may sometimes use art which
is not mine on this page, the gif of the doll from Bloodborne
below is an example. She was created by the incredibly
talented Einsbern who you can find here
Please tell me if any artwork is yours, and I will take it
down. I always try to credit the artist if I can find their
I was angry with my friend:
I told my wrath, my wrath did end.
I was angry with my foe:
I told it not, my wrath did grow.
And I water’d it in fears,
Night and morning with my tears;
And I sunned it with smiles,
And with soft deceitful wiles.
And it grew both day and night,
Till it bore an apple bright;
And my foe beheld it shine,
And he knew that it was mine,
And into my garden stole
When the night had veil’d the pole:
In the morning glad I see
My foe outstretch’d beneath the tree.
- A Poison Tree, William Blake
All About Me!
My name is Galdur, and this is my website. I enjoy a lot of
things, mostly writing, but I also have a deep interest in
Linux, coding, math, science, games, art, music, philosophy,
gothic aesthetics and politics. I also have passing interests
in anime (I can count all the anime I've watched on two hands,
hence passing interest), language and hiking. I've made this
site as a hub for my art projects, which will all be largely
personal and introspective, however I will also do some
which are focused on the outside world. It's a kind of penance
for mistakes I have made in the past, but also therapeutic for
me. Sometimes, you need a void you can just shout into. This
site itself is my little work-in-progress, It's an art project,
an attempt to express myself in a more succinct and "true" way
by coalescing all of my art into one monolithic project. It'll
be rudimentary at first, rough around the edges, and as I learn,
it'll develop with me. As close to a mirror of life as I'll
be able to achieve.
I apologize in advance for how "collegiate", novice,
pseudointellectual or whatever other rude adjectives you can
come up with to describe how my writing at the moment just
fucking sucks. It's a passion I've been neglecting for a couple
years, I need to shake off a lot of rust before I start writing
what I can be proud of. That doesn't mean I'm simply going to
not upload what I've written though. If you're someone who's
going to look down on someone working to develop themselves and their
hobby and disparage them because what they do in the beginning
inevitably sucks, leave. This stands for life as well.
Leave if you're going to look over my own past to either
make yourself feel superior or to believe it's shameful. I'm
going to be brutally honest about myself on this site, I've
previously just dodged my past and it feels disgusting and
cowardly. You have every right to judge, you have every
right to leave, just don't bother pointing out how I've been
imperfect in a past endeavor that I've already admitted to being
a poor effort on my part. I know I have, and I'm either in the
process of fixing it and making reparations, or already have.
Feel free to criticize my present self and anything I haven't
yet acknowledged though, hold me to task! The goal for me is to
better myself and what I do, I'd love help. I just dislike
intentional uncharitable behavior, it's an immature action
I've been guilty of in the past, so I don't want people to make
the same mistake.
I'll be honest, I did not expect to find that neocities had
some social-media-esque features. I apologize if I'm a little
lacking in the networking department in any regard, when I
made this I just wanted a place to express my thoughts which
was open to passers by, but not in any way that draws attention.
Regardless I'll be working on this as much as I can, it feels
like a different atmosphere from standard social media anyway,
and it was that which I wanted to escape. It may be a while
before I add support for other resolutions and mobiles, maybe
even certain browsers wont be perfect. You'll also have to
forgive the fact that I'm still going to upload the unfinished
stubs of projects to continue whenever I can, and it'll probably
make the site a little messy at times (this will be made all the
worse by the fact that I work iteratively and in a revisionary
fashion to optimize whatever I create).
To be Continued...