Welcome to the Twilight!

Currently Under Construction with Elm...

Introduction

Content Warning: normally I don't believe in content warnings, because I believe they can be used as a way to ignore the consequences of your actions. However, this site will often speak about my own mental health, and it could be particularly dangerous if you yourself have trauma, so be forewarned. Also, as a side note, I may sometimes use art which is not mine on this page, the gif of the doll from Bloodborne below is an example. She was created by the incredibly talented Einsbern who you can find here https://einsbern.tumblr.com/ ! Please tell me if any artwork is yours, and I will take it down. I always try to credit the artist if I can find their name.

I was angry with my friend:
I told my wrath, my wrath did end.
I was angry with my foe:
I told it not, my wrath did grow.

And I water’d it in fears,
Night and morning with my tears;
And I sunned it with smiles,
And with soft deceitful wiles.

And it grew both day and night,
Till it bore an apple bright;
And my foe beheld it shine,
And he knew that it was mine,

And into my garden stole
When the night had veil’d the pole:
In the morning glad I see
My foe outstretch’d beneath the tree.
- A Poison Tree, William Blake

All About Me!

My name is Galdur, and this is my website. I enjoy a lot of things, mostly writing, but I also have a deep interest in Linux, coding, math, science, games, art, music, philosophy, gothic aesthetics and politics. I also have passing interests in anime (I can count all the anime I've watched on two hands, hence passing interest), language and hiking. I've made this site as a hub for my art projects, which will all be largely personal and introspective, however I will also do some which are focused on the outside world. It's a kind of penance for mistakes I have made in the past, but also therapeutic for me. Sometimes, you need a void you can just shout into. This site itself is my little work-in-progress, It's an art project, an attempt to express myself in a more succinct and "true" way by coalescing all of my art into one monolithic project. It'll be rudimentary at first, rough around the edges, and as I learn, it'll develop with me. As close to a mirror of life as I'll be able to achieve.

I apologize in advance for how "collegiate", novice, pseudointellectual or whatever other rude adjectives you can come up with to describe how my writing at the moment just fucking sucks. It's a passion I've been neglecting for a couple years, I need to shake off a lot of rust before I start writing what I can be proud of. That doesn't mean I'm simply going to not upload what I've written though. If you're someone who's going to look down on someone working to develop themselves and their hobby and disparage them because what they do in the beginning inevitably sucks, leave. This stands for life as well. Leave if you're going to look over my own past to either make yourself feel superior or to believe it's shameful. I'm going to be brutally honest about myself on this site, I've previously just dodged my past and it feels disgusting and cowardly. You have every right to judge, you have every right to leave, just don't bother pointing out how I've been imperfect in a past endeavor that I've already admitted to being a poor effort on my part. I know I have, and I'm either in the process of fixing it and making reparations, or already have. Feel free to criticize my present self and anything I haven't yet acknowledged though, hold me to task! The goal for me is to better myself and what I do, I'd love help. I just dislike intentional uncharitable behavior, it's an immature action I've been guilty of in the past, so I don't want people to make the same mistake.

I'll be honest, I did not expect to find that neocities had some social-media-esque features. I apologize if I'm a little lacking in the networking department in any regard, when I made this I just wanted a place to express my thoughts which was open to passers by, but not in any way that draws attention. Regardless I'll be working on this as much as I can, it feels like a different atmosphere from standard social media anyway, and it was that which I wanted to escape. It may be a while before I add support for other resolutions and mobiles, maybe even certain browsers wont be perfect. You'll also have to forgive the fact that I'm still going to upload the unfinished stubs of projects to continue whenever I can, and it'll probably make the site a little messy at times (this will be made all the worse by the fact that I work iteratively and in a revisionary fashion to optimize whatever I create).

To be Continued...